i dun feel okay

hurm....dunno what to say now...
now, i feel so depressed and dunno why..
what is life all about??
i started questioning myself with bunch of questions that neither you nor others could not give me the rite answers..
i may seem like nothing happening to me..maybe i look like enjoying my life..maybe,maybe, and maybe..
n now, i am stiffed in front of the laptop wondering why i keep avoiding myself to concentrate on sumtin..
why and what are everywhere inside my brain., i dun think that anyone could help me..psychiatrist could not help me.. arghh....
kenapa kepala otak ni camni...
and for some reasons, i feel like i am a useless person and no one can do anything to fix it........................... i really need time for that, because i dont know what the @*#& is happening to me...sumtimes i even can joke on a serious thing, i can even be serious on such a lame thing...
and guess what, my academic performance is keep decreasing from time to time...classes seem nothing beneficial to me, i cant even stand to see the lecturers, TAs, and even my classmates...
perlu ke aku pedulikan bende2 ni???????????????????????????
sleeping seems to be the good resolution to me...and everyday, i almost sleep half of the day without even care how my roommate gonna feel about me, not studying, not doing my homework, but, makan byk plak...kekekeke....

wahhh, terer nye aku karang ayat..kekekeke...korg rase klaka tak bace????ahaks...klaka meyh....takde idea nak tulis ape...anyway, aku nak tgk movie kang..kekekeke....bye, enjoy my new entry ahaks..=)

huh???raye???ISU???

assalamualaikum sume.....lame saye tak update blog..wlupon baru seminggu...
wahahahaha...herm...saye nak cite pengalaman beraye kat negara orang buat pertama kali nye seumur hidup saye...sebelum ni mane penah pegi tempat len selain mesia ooiiii...ahaks...
fyi, pade hari 1st raye, bende tak bape best sgt...ye la, ade kelas pagi2 bute tu...ish3...benci tol....apsal la ade klas...sakit hati tau...herm, tu okay la....kitorang kat iowa state ni sambut raya on october 4, hari sabtu lepas...agak seronok..ye lah, kat sini, sume senior cam best..baik belaka...kak yati, kak nor, abg razi, kak zaf, kak sam, kak jaja, kak ita, kak farah norbi,kak farah dina,abg fadzli, abg byk lagi la..ingat sume org, tapi, takut penuh plak page ni..hohohoho..pade hari tu, kami sume merayekan hari raye...sonok ahh..sgt meriah, dengan byk food....kitorg cm buat potluck nye style, sume cm bwk food..byk tol juadah raye..klau, nak tgk gmbr tgk la kat friendster ye...hohohoh...erm, mase hari raye, i called rumah, 3 hari berturut2 i try call sume org..hampir dapat cakap ngan sume org la...tapi not all at the same time..but, from some information i gathered, hari second, all member of the family balik rumah, except you know who laaaa....takpe, tak kesah la, janji i dapat ckp ngan sume orang sudaa...hehehehe....there was a tragedy happened on that saturday, where tetibe je aku dapat tau aku ade allergy???
ntah la, aku pon tak tau kesahihannye..hohohoho..camni cite nye, mase maghrib hari sabtu tu, kak nor ajak g men masak2..n before tu, i makan la crab curry yg kak nor masak..hurm, tak bape suke kari....pedas!!!ok, fine,habis la, ketam yg ala seciput tu ku makan....boleyh la....actly, aku ni jarang makan ketam...takde ape2 jadi lepas tu..herm, mase tu lebih kurg kul 7 malam...then, dalam kul 8 pm kut, kak shida, kak sam, and all the bujangies datang ke rumah kak nor beraye..huhu, kitorg makan la..tapi i tak makan bende len selain nasi goreng kak nor...tu je, tak lame lepas tu, lebih kurg kul 9 kot, badan aku tetibe je panas...then, rase gatal2..aku pon garu la....habis bintat2 badan aku....seluruh badan plak tu..isk..sume conclude, kak zaf kate mybe sebab aku tak mandi 3 hari kut...ahaks..tipu2, mane ade....hohoho...lepas tu, kak nor kasik jelly gamat suh sapu...seb bek tak abis jelly gamat kak nor aku lumur kat badan aku..hohoho..last skali dorg sume conclude yg aku ni sebenarnye ade allergy, mybe allergy ketam...isk3..ilang satu nikmat dunia(bak kate cek warx)...hohohohoho...dan dengan tak semena-mena nye aku mendapat satu gelaran malam tu, gadis sensitive..hohoho..tak sudah2 gelaran yg di beri...belum sampai dua bulan di iowa state, sudah byk gelaran yg ku terima..gadis tak cukup umor la, gadis 90 an la, gadis 300 la, gadis gadget la...dan semuanye di beri oleh zulu yg kononnye menganggap dirinye hensem..tak sudah2 korg ni...dan pade hari raye itu, tersebar satu ames semua gelaran2 yg di beri..redha saje lah...ahaks....erm, setelah hari tu berlalu, minggu depan nye, saye ade 3 exam comin'...n i've been through two of them, which held yesterday(monday), and today(selase)...hohoho..n last exam is on this thursday, midterm calculus yg exam wktu malam, di mane tahap mengantuk ku sgt la tggi...actly, aku ngantuk bile2 mase je..hohohoh....


p/s:gmbr malas nak upload la....klau nak tgk, bukala page saye di friendster, http://www.friendster.com/uya90 ...klau tak dapat tgk, sile la add saye, sapura_90@yahoo.com ....hooho..